"Do you finally understand?"

 I hear a voice, and this voice tells me these things over and over.


"Do you FINALLY understand yet, son of man?

Do you finally understand that those you imagine love human dignity, peace and freedom, don't?

Do you finally understand that those you imagine to be decent and honorable, aren't?

Do you finally understand that those you thought would protect the innocent or at least try to, won't?

That those who you thought would love Justice, hate it?

That those who you imagine love you, don't?

That those who you imagine love G-d, don't?

Do you finally understand after all this that you are completely alone with G-d?

That your only friend is G-d, and Heaven alone knows why He puts up with you?

And are you finally awake yet, son of man?"


And every time I answer, yes, NOW, I am finally awake. Now I finally know. Never give your heart to a human. Know that all are crooked, the best of them are at best very partially good. All the humans of this age are wretched. Blind worms following their evil ways. Blinded sheep being led to Sheol, with Death as their shepherd.

But I don't know if I am really awake now. Will I never imagine that someone is an angel when they are not? Will I never imagine that someone loves me when they don't? Will I never imagine that someone loves G-d, when they don't?

Do I really not yet understand? Am I finally finished with this?

Honor is unknown among Man. The children of Man are altogether wretched.