A Hole In The Flames

 Why is it that I seek to be happy, to be entertained,
in a hole in the flames
a hole in the flames of a dying world?
A hole in the flames of perdition?

And I am, I am entertained
with hobbies and games and current events
The vexation of the World can only vex me from a distance
I am not vexed to my face, by G-d's grace.

Forgive, O Lord.

I have been entertained when treasures of the Spirit could be opened to me.
I have been contented when revelation could come in it's place.
I have used your Sanctuary as a house of rest and peace, but not enough prayer.
I am a cow in Your fields, not a man.

A man... as if that were better!
The World is the world of Man
The World I hate
The flames I am protected from.
If being a man means being of that, I cannot want it.
Better a cow in Your field than a man.

Silence, you know not, I say to me.
You are not potter but clay.
G-d acts, you are acted upon
G-d will do, not you.

But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise;
God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong.
God chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things
—and the things that are not — to nullify the things that are

~1 Corinthians 1:27-28